November 02, 2006

Rest, Sister

My sister killed herself last night. She took an overdose and was found dead by her flatmates. We won't have an official verdict until after autopsy and investigation by the police, in about 3 months, but it is almost definitely suicide.

It's times like this I'm glad I'm not a christian. I just talked to my brother and he said, No, she's gone, she's just nothing now; but I will miss her. I think that's even sadder than her death at such a young age by such a desperate hand. If I believed in anything, it would be reincarnation.

Sister, I hope you find rest and an opportunity to grieve this life; and then the peace and courage of new beginnings in another form.

The weirdest thing this morning is realising I now only have one sister. My little formula three-brothers-two-sisters phrase will now cause me to pause. Yet she's still my sister. Will I change it to three-brothers-one-sister or leave it as is and add (but one sister's dead).

I'll have to work out how to get up to Wellington for the funeral. I really don't want to see or talk to my parents by I suspect that will be unavoidable.

Posted by phreq at November 2, 2006 09:36 AM | TrackBack
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That's terrible - sorry to hear. Hang in there...

Posted by: Dave at November 2, 2006 11:23 AM

That's terrible - sorry to hear. Hang in there...

Posted by: Dave at November 2, 2006 11:24 AM

Sending you sympathy and wishing you strength... Its a hard thing to have happen, will be thinking of you over the next few weeks

Posted by: toni at November 2, 2006 01:05 PM

thank you guys. yeah, it's a weird feeling, it won't feel normal for a while I think.

Posted by: phreq at November 2, 2006 01:13 PM

i can never think of the right words (*are* there 'right words' for something like this?) but just know that i love you and i'm really sad that you have lost your sister.

stay strong

*hugs*

Z


Posted by: Zephfi at November 2, 2006 02:13 PM
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