September 19, 2005

Instinctive Hatred

Today I was reminded of the instinctive and brutal hatred of high school. I walked to the corner shop, and within 5 minutes, two boy-racer/skinheads had deliberately swerved and accelerated in order to spray me with a high velocity spray of snow, ice and water.

Twice. In five minutes. Why me? Why not the other 5 or 6 people on the street?

What the hell is it about me? People have been randomly throwing me down the stairwells since intermediate. Would someone tell me what it is about me that is so antagonistic? All I want is to be able to go about my life without idiots throwing stones at me or spraying me in painful ice and gravel.

It makes me feel like an ugly fat phreq. I went home and cried with Sock and we decided to never leave the house again. I feel like such an outcast, and I don't know what it is I'm doing that always prompts this. Ever since I was a kid. How do people know just by looking at me that I'm a geek?

Posted by phreq at September 19, 2005 07:35 PM | TrackBack

Its random dont let it get to you. And your looking good so dont blame it on image.

Posted by: Vincenzo at September 19, 2005 10:05 PM

People do crap like that alot - got sprayed by a bottle of water by some jerk in a car once. Don't worry, it's not a you thing, think it's a testosterone thing. Some men are just one step closer to apes..
Keep smiling hun :-)

Posted by: Emba at September 19, 2005 10:37 PM

HUGS> Don't let those jerks make you feel worse about yourself!! GRRR!

You are beautiful and I love you. Do you value the skinheads opinions more than mine? Give Sock a hug for me.


Posted by: sok at September 20, 2005 12:11 AM

Sometimes people just suck. I've had similar things (also walking around in Chch!), and it really does just seem to be random. Whatever it is on that particular day that's gonna lead some idiot to target someone for an arbitrary reason... I expect it changes as often as the weather, it's just that there are a lot of dickheads around. They might well have done a different person every block depending on how close they were to puddles of slush when the mood hit. It's really not going to be about you specifically, but a course it's gonna seem that way when it's you getting hit by slushy crap.

Dorks, driving around with their friends looking to randomly mess with people, suck.

You, by contrast, are lovely. That is my never-humble opinion.

Listen to the Sok up there, she knows what she's talking about.

Posted by: Rachel at September 20, 2005 10:54 AM

Aw, sweetie *hugs* sometimes people sucks. But it's not really anything to do with you, it's just to do with them. Hang in there!

Posted by: Fi at September 21, 2005 01:02 AM

hey u never give up, EVER my friend. First of all you are much better than those penis low life's. See my friend u should have a walking stick about 6 feet high and accidently stick it out as they go by and splat down they go. I just shake my head to what this world is coming to. Picking on the innocent makes me grrrrrrrrrrrrr. It was random hun, just a rough day, try to slough it off you. They aint worth to tie u down to home. you are so much more than that. You are worth it. You can rise above this. set your mind to it and you can do anything my friend. I am sorry i havent responded to your last email, been really hectic here. know i think of you, wish i could do more, keep your chin up and Chin up like the song in the animated movie called Charolettes web. ahem as I sing to u... "chin up! chin up! put a little laughter in your eyes, where it, share it, even though your feeling other wise, rise up, wise up, let a little fun begin, youll see once u get started, you will out smart it, up with your chiny chin chin" Ta da! lmao, sorry got carried away, put a smile on that sexy gorgeous face of yours, your loved very much all around you! God bless you my friend. May your day be sun shinny bright. lots of love, Tracy

Ps, i may have gotten the last verse in the song, abit off, but it has been awhile since i heard or watched the movie but its close ;) so forgive me that its not right on the button. Luv ya! dont forget to S M I L E ! ! ! :)

Posted by: Tracy at September 22, 2005 06:33 PM

Any chance of an update, its just that Im getting withrawl symptoms and my fingernails will never grow back.

Posted by: Vincenzo at September 25, 2005 06:55 PM

She has gone travelling and normally doesn't update then. Look for an update around tuesday.

Posted by: giffy at September 26, 2005 09:29 AM

Thanks for the heads up. Sorry for the missing d.

Posted by: Vincenzo at September 26, 2005 09:41 AM

It's really hard to see it that way... which just proves how unimaginative and unempathetic I really am. Nah, well - as you say, you really only remember the times it happens to you, not all the times is happens to someone else.

All I can say is that Homer's idea of carrying War Rocks around with him is making a lot of sense. I'll get some stones, write "F*** You, D*******!" on them and use them as needed.

The letdown in that scheme is my lack of sporting ability. I will probably end up throwing the rock at myself and breaking my toe again.

Posted by: phreq at September 26, 2005 01:00 PM

Ā good site, good short contents of the good work. Ņongratulations !

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