I was thinking about Giffy's old Little Fears post. (I forget why).
I remembered the thing that deprived me of most of my sleep as a child. It didn't really fit in with the other little fears she mentioned so I'm putting it here.
I'd think about death and dying. Now, we aren't a religious family so I had no comforting afterlife thoughts, so what I'd do is try to imagine not having a mind to think with. It is incredibly hard to *imagine* not having a mind, adn the thought of not being able to think both confused and scared me.
One time I thought about this so hard I saw the universe as an inconcievably large black hole just existing forever and I'd be lost in it. I don't think I slept after that one.
Mostly I don't think about that stuff now. I wake up in the night and think about Sadako* in her well and that's plenty scary for me.
*From Ring. They called her Tamara in the American version.
Posted by jenni at July 6, 2004 05:15 PM