Schrodinger's Cat

in the darkness

I think it was growing a vegetable garden in 2002 that did it, made me aware of the seasons as a way of timekeeping. I stopped wearing a watch around then too. Clock time's too fast for me, my brain works along slow processes. Now here we are back in the dark part of a year again, near the solstice. The summer decelerated, autumn came and went and now we're coming to rest on the bottom of the curve. I kind of like this time of year, more than 50% of the time is night, so it's a negative image of the rest of the year when we do most things in daylight. It's a good time for reading, I'm getting through Nietzsche's The Birth of Tragedy and Bruce Jesson's Only Their Purpose Is Mad, about the NZ economic changes since 1984. I've also got another vege garden, and harvested a broccoli the other night. Fresh organic produce energises a meal.

Two weeks to go til the semester break. Is anyone else going up to Auckland for the Sonic Youth gig? I'd really like to get a lift & share petrol with someone. The cheap airfares are all gone and the train's not much better. Looks like hitchhiking might have to be the way to go. It's not a good time of year for it though as the daylight hours are short and the chances of fine weather aren't great. It is a fun way to travel though, or at least I haven't had any bad experiences yet, and adds a sense of occasion to the SY concert. I should also play my second Auckland gig at Vitamin S on Monday 28th.

I'm wrapping up my affairs for the first half of the year, finishing things off in time for the solstice. One more newspaper story to write - which looks like being a report on the Paekakariki Community Board meeting on Tuesday. Also a page layout to design, and I'm still way behind on shorthand (meant to be on 60wpm, I think I'm up to about 30). Outside the course I've been converting Loose Autumn Moans to CDR so I'll have to redesign the artwork. What do you think - should I include transcriptions of the lyrics? There's also the second draft of my chapter on The Space to produce, and I should adapt one of my short stories into a script for the Radio NZ season of new works.

The trip to Auckland comes just after the solstice so that should be the start of new things, the Spring regrowth. I hope I can get past this long period of being single, it gets kind of boring. I saw Elisa today briefly, she asked if I was entering the 48-hour film challenge in the weekend. Nope. I only heard about it today, sounds kind of fun. Maybe I've closed the door too firmly on working in the film medium, but I had my reasons. Film's a bad scene. Instead, tomorrow I lined up some work clearing a fence-line. I need some work, I've got $10 in the bank at the moment. I hope I can finance this Auckland trip somehow...

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