I sobbed watching TV3 tonight. God that poor 9yr-old girl, raped and abused for 5 years, and then suicided. My god my god, it could have been me, I came so close so many times. That poor, poor girl. That poor kid. She left a note that said "I don't hate him, I hate myself", and that speaks so tragically for those who experience abuse and rape.
The sickening thing was the evil bastard that did this blamed her too. As if a nine year old kid would iniate it. No more than I did at six. But I blamed and hated myself for decades after, and my heart breaks for this kid. The evil that men do.
And you know what shouldn't matter, but does? My fat ugly stomach folds over on itself, and I just want to take a knife to it. I wish I didn't feel like this, and I wish I didn't look like this.
Two totally disparate things to cry about.
God that poor girl. That poor girl.
I hope that bastard gets raped and knifed in prison. I hope people spit on him and put razor-blades in his food. I hope he gets shoved down the stairs and pissed on in the showers. I hope someone stubs out cigarettes on his penis and turns his scrotum into a tobacco pouch. I'd roll a cigarette from in and shove the lighter up his fucking ass. Piece of shit. Rot in hell.
Posted by phreq at May 25, 2005 09:52 PM | TrackBackI love your stomach. I especially love it if it as a roll when you bend over and if it has any type of a "pot". I love them, they are sooo cute! Please don't do anything to hurt yourself.
(Do you notice I said love 3 times? 3 times means it's true!)
Posted by: giffy at May 26, 2005 12:34 PMhey hon, love you lots. THat was a heart-wrenching story. Can't believe that guy. just. can't. believe. Unfortunately I know its true and worse, not a one off case. Bah.
hugs
It would make my day better if you didn’t hurt yourself. And I’m arrogant enough to believe that would change your mind, so please don’t ruin my illusion.
I suspect your friends would have better days as well.
I am sorry as well for everything that the weak impose on the strong. As a member of the aggressive sex, Im disgusted with what happened and once again surprised that no one could help.
Posted by: Vincent at May 26, 2005 03:08 PM
Sometimes reading your blog overwhelms me with powerlessness... I'd like to be able to change the world so things like that didn't happen... I'd like to change the world so you felt okay about living in your body... but hey... I struggle with that myself
Posted by: Karen at May 27, 2005 01:06 PMNot your body... my body... Oh, I dunno. I hope you are feeling a bit more okay now. Take care of yourself and your tummy!
Posted by: Karen at May 27, 2005 01:08 PMthat news report was absolutely wrenching. small consolation that he will be treated as the lowest possible scum in prison.
you're lovely and gorgeous sweetie. *BIG HUGS*
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Posted by: Arnie at March 7, 2006 01:21 PMI hate myself too. I’m fat and ugly and poor and lazy and incompetent.
Posted by: Felicity at January 5, 2007 11:28 PM