May 11, 2005

Panel Beating The Literal Way

Over the last couple of days I have been taking the insides of car doors off and kicking the panels. This approach fixed a large dent in the RH passenger door and a broken lock in the RH front door. I have also been going nuts with the sandpaper and the filler/primer spray, fixing those rust spots before winter hits in earnest. I have fixed and repainted (it’s really fun to spray-paint things, I can see why yobs enjoy it) most of the spots, but I need to get proper filler to deal with the hole in the window column.

I am enjoying the slowly evolving relationship with my car as I get more involved in caring for it. There’s something satisfying about sanding and repainting your own car, and knowing that it’s going to actually preserve the life of the vehicle. The red “Jazz” spray-paint from the Warehouse is close enough to the colour of the car to satisfying a non-discriminating type like myself.

Today was the three-week personal anniversary of “doing better with food”. This has the unfortunate side-effect of me hating – physically revolting against – the body I’m. I hope, pray, rationalise, hopefully don’t self-delude, that this will get easier. Sometime. Eventually. It is just so so so so so so hard. It feels out of control and so do I.

Here is a lovely recipe:
2 tomatoes
6 mushrooms
1 courgette
1 piece of beef schnitzel

Slice everything up and put in a non-stick frypan on a low heat for about an hour. Stir sometimes.

God I feel sick, fat and disgusting. I hate this.

Posted by phreq at May 11, 2005 08:53 PM | TrackBack

I have known you bigger than you are and you have never EVER been "fat and disgusting".

Posted by: giffy at May 11, 2005 09:47 PM

I totally agree and Ive never even seen you.

Posted by: Vincent at May 12, 2005 10:17 AM

Congrats on the 3 week anniversary!! Very cool!! And I totally agree with Giffy, there's no way you're anywhere near fat.

Posted by: Emba at May 12, 2005 01:52 PM

Everybody sing with me:

"You are beautiful no matter what you say! Words can't bring you down!"

No really. I love you and I want you to live. Keep eating! Anytime it seems too hard go and look at:'ll make you feel better ;p

Posted by: Jenni at May 12, 2005 03:12 PM

congrats - i impressed by your car-fixiness and your self-fixiness. i think eating right it hard to do as it is so it's doubly wonderful that you're doing so well. try and remember to do what our knee-jerk government is so bad at doing - think of the long-term benefits more than the short-term costs. it's a lot easier to feel good about yourself inside AND out, when you know your inside is healthy.

and i reiterate what others have already said - yous gorgeous and not in the slightest fat, nor ugly.


Posted by: Zephfi at May 12, 2005 06:33 PM

Ah, the myriad ills that dailykittens have cured :) the cuteness!

Thanks guys. I appreciate your thoughts... Someday it will sink in through my thick skull, and until then I just gotta keep ramming said skull into a brick wall ;)

Posted by: phreq at May 13, 2005 08:00 AM

Awesome you - 3 weeks is great :). Just think how much more of a leg-to-stand-on you'll have with your public health broadcasts with a healthy intake :).

"Hah, suckers! I 0wnz *all* your nutritional knowledge, and implement it, so bite me nerdboy!".

(re natural confectionary - Yeah, I know they're all sugar etc. but they taste much better, and it means I don't have to be scared of the yellow ones in case they're fake-banana that might make me sick).

Posted by: Rachel at May 14, 2005 01:44 AM
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