Ruby Tuesday died this morning. Unfortunately she didn't get the death I really wanted for her, one of those old-age-go-to-sleep-never-wake-up deals, but at least it was at home, in my bed, and fairly quick.
She'd been sliding physically and emotionally for a couple of weeks, kind of withdrawn and lethargic, and then Tuesday she started having seizures and losing control of her bowels and stuff. I took her to the vet yesterday evening and he said to try her on some epilepsy meds, but he didn't know quite what was going on.
Well I woke up this morning at 5.00 and she was having a seizure. I could see blood in her mouth so I knew it was dangerous and I tried to grab her to do something but she seizes with her claws out and my hands just got cut to shreds. So I just had to stand there and watch, she choked on the blood and she must have aspirated it because clearing her airway didn't do any good. And when she stopped seizing, she wasn't breathing, and a few minutes later I felt her die.
I considered mouth-to-nose resuscitation but given her health over the last few days I decided to just let nature take its course. She was at least 14, so she had had a good run of it. I'd only had her for 4 1/2 years, but I tried to make those the best I could for her. She was an amazing friend and an amazing cat. I'll never forget the bond we had.
It seems weird to be sitting here, writing this, with Ruby wrapped in a duvet at my feet, as we've done so many times before, yet knowing that I'll never hear her voice or feel her purrs vibrating up my legs again. She was such an individual, and we knew each other so intimately, I honestly believe I could understand her as well as I do my english-speaking friends. I was closer to her than most of my family members.
:( :( :(
a dozen roses for my baby girl
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Good hunting, Ruby. You made me want to believe in reincarnation. I hope our spirits meet again somewhere. I tried my best, and I always loved you.
And much love coming from from me to rubes *face bump* - faked ya!. You and i sitting in jens flat cuddled together while she was at ashburn. A support group missing our beloved jen. Hiding treats for you, marmiting cheese singles and folding them up, bits of chocolate. You walking on the keyboard while i'm on the computer. sitting on the top of the green chair staring out over Newtown. Long prolonged brushing sessions (yet still got fur on my suits).
Who else has a face like that? who else can show their disapproval of the vacuum cleaner so eloquently without words? 'what me- jealous of you and jen together? never, i just decided it was time to move from the window ledge where i've been all day to the pillow'
Many tears today for my other special girl. May you find your comfy place wherever that may be. the cpubard under the sink, the carboard box with the duvet fashioned in, the computer chair, the window ledge behind the curtain facing north.
Posted by: d at June 10, 2004 08:26 AMhugs and love, she sounded pretty awesome.
Posted by: Giffy at June 10, 2004 02:49 PMgoodbye ruby hon.you are a fabulous personality and you were a great friend to jen.
lots of love and hugs for ya jen
Hugs from me too.
Posted by: cal at June 11, 2004 01:00 AMThank you guys :)
Posted by: phreq at June 11, 2004 08:28 AMAWE I am in such tears my friend, major hugs to you, My heart has ached too many losses as such. I so muchly understand your pain my freind. Luv you my friend wish I were there to help. Know I am there with you. HUGSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS Tracy
THE RAINBOW BRIDGE
"Just this side of Heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge.
When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here,
that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge.
There are meadows and hills for all our special friends so they can run and play together.
There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable.
All the animals who had been ill or old are restored to health and vigor;
those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again,
just as we remember them in our dreams of days gone by.
The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing;
they each miss someone very special to them who had to be left behind.
They all run and play together,
but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance.
His bright eyes are intent;his eager body quivers.
Suddenly he begins to run from the group, flying over the green grass,
his legs carrying him faster and faster.
You have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet,
you cling to each other in joyous reunion, never to be parted again.
The happy kisses rain upon your face;
your hands again caress the beloved head,
and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet,
so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart.
Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together........"
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Posted by: Tracy at June 13, 2004 03:13 AM:( *big hugs* Jen. i had to spend about 3 days wondering if my cat had died and it's the most awful feeling. i'm sure it brought comfort to Ruby, knowing that you were there at the end. thinking of you and Ruby. luv Z
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