I made the drive from Picton to Chch in a little over 5 hours, which was excellent - good luck to get on the roads so early, we didn't hit traffic at all until Chch really. Regan came with me and that was a real sanity-saver - just to know that I could pull over and ask her to drive, or if something went wrong with the car there would be someone else to ask. But as it eventuated, the trip went incredibly smoothly.
I'm staying with some friends of mine (the same people I stayed with over New Year's) so I am surrounded by many cute dogs. Ruby Tuesday (my cat) is adjusting ok - better than I thought she would, in fact. I've kept her in one room thus far and go and give her a couple of 'contact' hours each day, and make sure I spread the dogs scent on her and her scent on the dogs so they get used to each other being around.
I think the emotional reaction to the break-up is starting to set in a little. When I was in Wellington I was in my rational coping mode, turn off everything except the capable part that has to get things done. Now I'm down here and suddenly things are sneaking up on me emotionally again, which is a bit tough. But I guess it is a phase and one that will be worked through. I feel quite overwhelmed at times, panicked about what I've done and the massive upheaval to life in the last few weeks. Seems like a bit of a roller-coaster really.
I don't know if I'm just lazy or what, but the people I'm living in do SO much! They never stop - they always have something they're doing or planning or need to attend to. Makes me tired just thinking about it! I guess I worry that having spent so much time on my own and in hospital in the last few years that I'm just not used to a normal level of stress and activity. I find it freaks me out to think of all the things I have to do and plan and stuff, I just want to cry and hide in bed. Mature huh?! Hoping that it's a part of me I can work on.
Well not much else to say I guess except a HUGE thank-you to everyone for their feedback and support - especially Jenni and Regan. :) And even to Dave, in a way, I think he really tried to make it easy for me to go, even though it hurt him terribly.
You are doing awesome. I think we all feel the need to crawl under the covers and you are not doing nothing! You just moved cities and have to cope with a break up! I'm sure Regs already said but you are welcome to come and stay at our flat in Wellington whenever you want... as soon as we move in anyway ;)
Posted by: Giffy at January 30, 2004 08:39 AMGlad to hear you arrived safely :)
I'll let you in on a secret, if I could, I would never get up. I would stay in bed all the time. Problem is Lee won't support me financially and no-one's about to pay me to stay in bed, so.
*sigh*
Posted by: Jenni at January 30, 2004 01:57 PMHey Jenny, glad you arrived safely, and that ruby is adjusting so well. Talk about huge steps you have taken dear, awesome work. Your very brave. Hugs to u both. Crying is great release of stress, and no shame in that at all. Just remember something hun, rome wasnt built in a day, take your time, and take one step at a time, not all the steps at once. I know you can succeed in anything, just set your mind to do it, you can do anything my friend. Look at the light it will keep your ideas bright, never give up always put up a fight, spread your wings to take flight, letting yourself soar to your dreams and hopes delight. Your a survivor. Keep your chin up, You can do it girl! say hi to all your friends there from me, I believe in you! Sending Much luv, your friend from Canada, Tracy (((((((((hugs))))))))
Posted by: Trac at January 30, 2004 03:23 PMThanks
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