February 05, 2007

Difficult decisions

I'm on holiday today in Edinburgh. It's sunny and crisp and green. The air doesn't smell like London, and the wee burdies are tweeting.

Am I out there enjoying the sunshine? Heavens no. I'm all excited about using Alice's computer, after not having internet at home for a month. Oh dear.

I've also rediscovered a whole shopping-bag-full of photos which I left with Alice. They are of about two years ago, covering NZ, India, Spain, Edinburgh and so many wonderful people.

Looking at them makes me all sad and nostalgic. I find it worrying how many people I just can't remember in them. Or some people I can remember their smile and how they made me feel, but can't quite remember their name... Or how I knew them...

I met some interesting people on the train on the way up here. One was a retired man who had been a nuclear scientist. He talked about the last time he was in Scarborough, in 1937. I can't imagine how incredible it would be to have that sort of perspective on your life.

On the other hand, perhaps it means I let go of things quickly. I can't remember the full beauty of my past, and I know there has been a lot of it, but I also can't remember the full pain.

I have only been given the gift of this time, so I may as well enjoy it right now. And perhaps take photos of it, so at least I can laugh at my hairstyles in the future. ;-)

I'm going out in the sunshine now. To take photos.

Posted by eithne at February 5, 2007 10:52 AM | TrackBack
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