July 12, 2005

Internalise

Recently I was talking to a single friend and they were a bit sad about being single (having been so for a time) while others around them were getting psyched up about their relationships. I got it, but not that much because I am all psyched up about Beau and I and how serious we are. However, the security system that surrounded me has come down.

Beau is far away and I am by nature insecure about our relationship. I don't think I'm good enough or something. That was ok though, he emails me relatively frequently and he so obviously misses and wants to be with me and I know that I miss him desperately. However, there have been stirrings in others relationships. Dangerous stirrings, that shake my foundations.

I worry for them, I worry for Beau and I, I worry for other couples that appear to be ok but who are maybe just private and not sharing their problems with me. I don't even know why I'm posting this, except that I want it out of me.

Feel free not to comment. I hope that all relationships you have are stable and successful, and that if they are not, that you survive and don't give up on the future.

Posted by giffy at July 12, 2005 03:47 PM | TrackBack
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