Yeah, so I'm pretty tense. I've been grinding my teeth in my sleep and I read a completely innocuous comment on a friend's lj and had to walk away from the computer before I flamed in the comments. Me! Flaming! Unheard of!
I think it's safe to say it's because of my engagment party which 57 people have said yes to attending. 57! Party numbers have never really bothered me before. But then I was never allowed to have such a big party before. It is somewhat upsetting, since we're supposed to be feeding these people and even though I *know* we're going shopping tonight and tomorrow morning the only food that is already in existence for the party is Russian Fudge. One medium sized fridesmart Tupperware full. That won't feed 57 people!
My theory here is that if I rant enough online I can stop this pain in my jaw by relaxing. So far, not working. More rant needed.
OK, so I know what I'm going to wear but I don't want to wear it to cook/prepare in before the party so I'm gonna have to pack a change of clothes in the morning and get changed right before the party. Or I could zoom back home and have a relaxing glitter bath and return to the party in full splendor pink and flushed. But it seems ridiculous to have a bath at home in the middle of the day when I'm going to be at the party venue all day. Lee's talking about leaving for Moore Wilson's at 9.30am....I want to sleep in but I know it'll be impossible since it took me ages to get to sleep last night and I knew there was nothing to worry about.
I had to get Lee to rest his hand on my forehead for ten minutes. For some reason that really relaxes me (until his hand got hot. Then it was oogie.)
Right. Feeling a little better now. Might go and play with my virtual paper dolls. Feel free to offer advice and/or outrage about my freakout rant.
Posted by jenni at March 4, 2005 12:48 PM