incremental progress

Judgement day

I've just come back from handing the thesis in.

I feel nervous. What if it isn't good enough. There are some doozy mistakes in the references, and it looks so scruffy having dumb mistakes like that. I'll probably have to reprint the whole thing after the oral exam. Assuming of course that it gets the pass with corrections grade.

I feel grief. Its like letting go of my baby and sending it into the world. I hope they are kind to my baby. And there is this space now that I don't have filled in my mind which is where the worry about the book has gone. Its letting go of part of my life, seven years of my life.

I feel relief - I made the deadline, and the damn thing is mostly done. I can go home and enjoy Christmas now.

I feel the what shall I do with my life now stuff. I like doing the mathematical modeling and now I have found out I might get a job in that. Should I give that a go? Teaching is always sitting there as a backstop, and so if it doesn't work, its not a crisis.

I feel really happy. Hot diggity dog, I wrote a book!

Posted by Toni at December 15, 2005 09:30 AM