beautiful monsters: Patellofemoral Pain Syndrome is a pain in theÖ knees.

August 21, 2007

Patellofemoral Pain Syndrome is a pain in theÖ knees.

Iím sick of being in pain. Itís not making me stronger, itís not making me a better person. Itís making me tired and grumpy and miserable.

When I bend my knees, itís like when someone bends your fingers back further than they are meant to go. That kind of pain. Then it starts to feel like someone is trying to yank off my kneecaps. If I crouch lower, it feels like my knees are being crushed.

Walking up stairs itís like there is sand in the joints, grinding between the bones.

When Iím sitting itís a pain like when you hit your thumb with a hammer, when your hands are really cold. That kind of pain, but instead of lasting for a moment it is stretched out over minutes, or hours.

Sometimes at night I wake up with a pain like toothache. Just to the left of my right kneecap.

I'm taking painkillers, going to physio, doing all the exercises... nothing seems to help. It's getting worse.

Posted by Fionnaigh at August 21, 2007 10:45 PM | TrackBack

Someone posted one of your poems on the livejournal community nz_poetry :)

Posted by: suraya at August 28, 2007 11:54 AM

Hi Fionnaigh

Ar you still in pain? Hope not .. but ... I used to get knee pain ..seemed to be pseudo arthritis -or retro virus - where a virus like a cold gets into the joins & causes inflammation. Anyway, it got worse if I drank coffee or had too much chocolate (inflammatory substances) but got better if I increased the fish oil intake & natural anti-inflammatories like apples, rock melon & green tea. I also found a joint supplement with glucosamine & chondroitin helpful.

Hope to see you next week at Tim's poetry launch. He's stressing out cos the printer hasn't finished the books yet!


Posted by: Kay at September 1, 2007 06:06 PM

I saw that you linked to my blog. Thanks so much. I wish that words I could write would make the pain easier. I wish that there was something I could say. Something that anyone could say. But I don't think that there is. Just know that you are not alone, that you don't have to think it makes you stronger, that it sucks, and, I hope, that you can still have hope that it will get better someday. I hope that for you. And I love the title of this blog.
With peace and hope for healing, Elizabeth

Posted by: Elizabeth at October 6, 2007 09:14 AM