Two of my flatmates moved out a couple of weeks ago. Tommy and I have been thinking for a while that it’s a bit much having four people in this house… it’s just too small, it gets too messy and we get in each other’s faces. So we decided to find another flatmate for one of the rooms, and I’m renting the other room as an office. I’ve moved the desk and computer through, and a new bookshelf is arriving tomorrow, so all my books will be shelved instead of stacked in precarious piles.
I’m sleeping in the office tonight. Partly because I can’t reach my bed, and even if I could it’s buried under debris that used to be in my desk drawers. Mostly because I can’t bear to be separated from my computer. I don’t want her to be scared, all alone in this new place. This will be the last night we spend together.
I’ve been bracing myself for this separation for a long time. I know it’s the right thing to do. We’ve become too dependent on each other. We need time apart, space to find ourselves.
It’s not going to be easy. I’ll miss her humming softly as I drift off to sleep, her bright green light winking at me across the room. But I know that whenever I need her she’ll be waiting for me… just across the hallway.
Posted by Fionnaigh at May 13, 2003 11:32 PMi, too, am addicted to my computer. i figure it's a healthy addiction. i can quit any time. really, i can.
anyway, thanks to you and some others i have begun to watch Buffy. bought the first season over the weekend and am making my way through it. i am enjoying it so far. soon i'm sure i'll be buying the rest of the seasons. i hope they keep coming out with the dvds before i get to them. i hate waiting. i am sad to be discovering a show right before it goes off the air, but such is my luck. i seem to always be a little behind the times.
Posted by: shannon at May 14, 2003 07:09 AMI think it's healthy to keep them in a separate room. Allows each of you your privacy and personal space.
Shannon, as a one-time Buffy obsessive, I recommend pretending that season 6 and 7 never happened. (Though I'm sure others will disagree.) The first half of s6 is pretty good, but it starts to fall apart around half-way and grinds you down.
Posted by: iona at May 14, 2003 09:50 AMHey there - just lettin' ye know that I'm still reading your blog and feel mostly kept up to date despite my hermitty unsociable ways, and wanted to congratulate you on your room/office decision. I think it's a v. mature and sensible and blah blah decision.
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